Monday Musings
being in love is a weakness.
in love u become over sensitive,
you become over emotional over small lil things
you start making judgements thru heart than brains,
you lose track of time and world
in love you cry often, you are insecure,you are fussy, you are demanding
You don't want to view world in different angle
you get easily pleased u feel happy for no reason sad for no reason angry for no reason
Yet love is power,it can be ur strength
it can make u do even the impossible things,it can make you self less, giving more and expecting less,it has the ability to change whole personality. Love can make history, it can change worlds.Love can make people mature , more emphatic,compassionate,tolerant. It can give you the power to manipulate other person. many people understand the language of love than other languages
Love has many shades and i discovered two of it
Ahem i am not in love!! its just my observation from people around me who are in love!! i was closly observing two set of ppl who are going thru this phase
With out u I feel like
With out u I feel like
a sail without wind
sun behind the clouds
water beneath the ice
flower without fragrance
bird without wings
child lost in forest
food without salt
dumb without words
deaf without your voice
numb without your touch
dead without your life
yes dad I feel so dead without you around
I am working in office suddenly remembered my dad and felt the above, so thought of penning them down
identity Crisis
American or an Indian
Today I had an early morning meeting with business folks.
Business sponsor J is a jovial man. We were discussing few other things apart from work. He asked me a question like are you married are u single then after a pause he said is it too personal a question to ask?. I looked at my Sr business analyst A who was nodding her head and then I was like yes and I think it’s unprofessional too :) , A was all smiles :). Then the topic drifted to personal space etc etc.
J was teasing A that she might need some medical help or she needs to see some psychiatrist as she is not comfortable with people standing too near to her. I was like , I can relate to it as I feel the same too. Then we were talking about cultures ,how it freaks out when people try to peep on to your computer screen over your shoulder and suddenly J was like “you know what you are more like American born in India!!”
Many people have noticed that too! (born in India with American attitude)
I thought about it for a while and guess what I feel like half American and half Indian
Points that make me American could be
- I need lot of personal space
- I need space in any relationship (even in friendship as well as my mom!!)
- I don’t like it when people speak in high volume
- I would go in a car to fitness center and work out on tread mill :P
- I love iced teas(I have tried all flavors)
- I love flavored coffee
- I love to have pets, pamper them, take them out :)
- I cannot use other peoples items or let others use my items without my permission
- I hate discussing about my personal life in office and with strangers
- I hate it when people become too inquisitive about my life and want report about each and every step!!
- I feel that I am very distant ,isolated ,private person at times
- I cannot take it if people unnecessarily boss over me, many try to do that as initially I seem very submissive, but I have my own ways to rebel :)
- Possessive people suffocate me
- I am too frank and straight forward, but not rude.
- I am assertive when I know what I want
- I need some kind of motivation to do any work, I cannot blindly do things
- I am very practical and logical in life
- I love to camp, trek, hike, spend time outside during summer.
- I really cannot bear the heat!!!
- In winter I love to ski , skate, go bowling, having lunch/dinner parties at home
- I like to do things around house like some craft or carpentry
- I have no issues being friendly/being a friend with people who smoke/drink or have n number of partners as long as they don’t force me , iam fine with it
- I don't think its wrong to talk about s—-or about gay/lesbian concepts with close friends
- I don’t feel embarrassed to tell people that I have my periods!! I think it’s a natural thing every one knows and when people ask me if I am not well I cannot lie!!!
Points that make me Indian could be
- I am still a vegetarian
- I don’t want to smoke or drink
- I feel embarrassed to watch movies which has smooching/kissing screen. I turn away my face from it
- I cannot watch movies that have too much physical activity in them! I have not watched a single porn movie so far
- I am very religious and I do pooja every day
- I cannot speak against elders as I respect their age
- I love kids
- I don’t like if any tom dick and harry wants to hug me!.
- I believe that if I sleep with a guy that would be my husband else no one
- I don’t want to have extra marital affairs
- I cannot stand it when people try to flirt
- I like colors in my dress than simple pink or blue
- I believe in looking after parents when they are old
its raining here since quiet some time. its not raining very heavily though.
somwhow i like rains. i think its romantic :).
i think it feels good to cuddle with someone in warm blanket with a nice novel in hand with tea and hot pakoras. light music in back ground, a cat and a dog nera the feet
i think it is also nice to watch the rain drops falling slowly from the roof top sliding elegantly on the glass window and then falling down
i think it is also nice to go for a walk with proper attire and an umbrella. the whole nature seems to be speaking,breathing and vibrating
i think it is nice to go cycling with rain coat and cap and then drink hot masala tea with bhajiis :)
*Sigh* i better stop dreaming and get back to real world where i need to work till 12 am today :(
One chat conversation
I donno wht is it with few guys!! who try to ask questions like this!!. I can't help but smile at times. The questions asked were some thing like for some martimonial!!!
iam sure given a chance the person would have asked abt my salary my bank balance my assets!!!! I hate such guys!!
Mr SG (6/4/2006 9:56:46 PM): hi
Me (6/4/2006 9:56:51 PM): hii
Mr SG (6/4/2006 9:57:03 PM): I am Mr SG
Mr SG (6/4/2006 9:57:24 PM): working with nissan at LA,cal
Me (6/4/2006 9:57:52 PM): ok
Mr SG (6/4/2006 9:57:57 PM): this is the first time,I guess we r chatting
Me (6/4/2006 9:58:04 PM): yes
Mr SG (6/4/2006 9:58:15 PM): tell me something abt u
Me (6/4/2006 9:58:20 PM):
Mr SG (6/4/2006 9:58:23 PM): what do u do
Me (6/4/2006 9:58:47 PM): wht do want to know
Mr SG (6/4/2006 9:59:05 PM): u working somewhere
Me (6/4/2006 9:59:51 PM): yes
Mr SG (6/4/2006 10:00:03 PM): oks
Mr SG (6/4/2006 10:00:22 PM): what have u studied
Me (6/4/2006 10:00:41 PM): wht abt u
Me (6/4/2006 10:00:42 PM): ?
Mr SG (6/4/2006 10:01:03 PM): I have done my grad in CS from ukraine
Me (6/4/2006 10:01:08 PM): ok
Mr SG (6/4/2006 10:01:28 PM): and u
Me (6/4/2006 10:01:45 PM): ukraine?Mr SG (6/4/2006 10:01:48 PM): yes
Me (6/4/2006 10:01:50 PM): u are not frm india
Mr SG (6/4/2006 10:01:58 PM): formerly USSR
Mr SG (6/4/2006 10:02:10 PM): I am fr tvm,kerala
Me (6/4/2006 10:02:30 PM): ok wt were u doing in ukraine
Mr SG (6/4/2006 10:02:38 PM): I did my engr
Mr SG (6/4/2006 10:02:44 PM): theer
Me (6/4/2006 10:02:46 PM): ??
Me (6/4/2006 10:02:50 PM): parents?
Mr SG (6/4/2006 10:02:52 PM): yes
Mr SG (6/4/2006 10:02:59 PM): they are at tvm,kerala
Me (6/4/2006 10:03:10 PM): ok why did u go to ukraine
Mr SG (6/4/2006 10:03:18 PM): to study
Me (6/4/2006 10:03:26 PM): didn't get seat in india
Mr SG (6/4/2006 10:04:04 PM): I was actually studying russain at house of soviet culture,tvm
Mr SG (6/4/2006 10:04:18 PM): a professor there recomended me
Me (6/4/2006 10:04:22 PM): ok
Me (6/4/2006 10:04:38 PM): russian school in india?
Mr SG (6/4/2006 10:04:39 PM): tell abt urself
Mr SG (6/4/2006 10:04:47 PM): cultural centre
Me (6/4/2006 10:04:58 PM): not regular school
Mr SG (6/4/2006 10:05:18 PM): what have u studied
Mr SG (6/4/2006 10:05:42 PM): ok
Mr SG (6/4/2006 10:05:59 PM): why dont u add me to ur list of friendsMe (6/4/2006 10:06:05 PM): where?
Me (6/4/2006 10:06:07 PM): wht
Mr SG (6/4/2006 10:06:11 PM): orkut
Me (6/4/2006 10:06:17 PM): why don't u add
Mr SG (6/4/2006 10:06:29 PM): tell me ur name
Mr SG (6/4/2006 10:06:34 PM): orkut name
Me (6/4/2006 10:07:21 PM): Me (6/4/2006 10:07:25 PM): why
Me (6/4/2006 10:07:30 PM): so many questions?
Mr SG (6/4/2006 10:07:38 PM): questions
Me (6/4/2006 10:07:42 PM): how did u message me???
Mr SG (6/4/2006 10:07:46 PM): I never asked any
Me (6/4/2006 10:07:51 PM): how did u add me>>
Me (6/4/2006 10:07:59 PM): u did
Me (6/4/2006 10:08:07 PM): wht I studies wht iam doing
Mr SG (6/4/2006 10:08:07 PM): u send me the mail
Me (6/4/2006 10:08:14 PM): u messaged me
Me (6/4/2006 10:08:15 PM): first
Mr SG (6/4/2006 10:08:22 PM): thats the only thing I asked
Mr SG (6/4/2006 10:08:35 PM): right
Me (6/4/2006 10:08:36 PM): well how did u get my id?
Me (6/4/2006 10:08:39 PM): who are u
Mr SG (6/4/2006 10:08:42 PM): I want to have friends
Me (6/4/2006 10:08:45 PM): ok
Me (6/4/2006 10:08:51 PM): how did u message me??
Mr SG (6/4/2006 10:09:04 PM): I found ur profile in orkut
Me (6/4/2006 10:09:19 PM): hm ok
Me (6/4/2006 10:09:31 PM): then why are u asking for my orkut name?
Mr SG (6/4/2006 10:10:12 PM): ur orkut name is different
Mr SG (6/4/2006 10:10:27 PM): I am not able to search with ur id
Me (6/4/2006 10:10:45 PM): gm
Mr SG (6/4/2006 10:10:46 PM): tell me
Me (6/4/2006 10:10:49 PM): g2g bbye
Mr SG (6/4/2006 10:10:56 PM): r u fr chennai
Mr SG (6/4/2006 10:11:02 PM): me too
Me (6/4/2006 10:11:32 PM): gnite
Mr SG (6/4/2006 10:11:46 PM): its 7 oclock only here
Mr SG (6/4/2006 10:11:56 PM): too early
